The Frustration!!

Dear Me,

   So this is my new blog.  Meh.  I probably could have started this in a private journal but I can't seem to focus on that kind of writing right now.  Typing is faster.
I'm kind of frustrated right now because my allergies seem to be affecting my ability to focus on anything!
I have constantly felt like I'm in a fog for the last five days.  My eyes are constantly watering and I'm sneezing like crazy.  I'm just starting to be able to breathe through my nose, which is a blessing because I'm hoping I might be actually able to sleep without feeling I'm sucking air through a straw.  I guess I should be thankful it's not a cold and that I'm at no risk for any kind of infection.  Though if the sinus pressure continues, I'm afraid my face my explode.
I should probably be working on my writing course but the idea of it is just too horrific to contemplate.  I mean, it's a relatively easy assignment.  It shouldn't take that much of an effort but for some reason it feels like it's this HUGE task.
When I feel like this, I kind of wonder what will happen when I try to take on my big course.  My big course being a year to a year and a half of learning to write a proper novel.
While I enjoy taking these courses, I worry that perhaps I won't be able to finish this particular course when I feel like this (miserable, unable to focus, and having a serious lack of motivation).
I know I'm going to take it anyway.
I have this irritating niggling in the back of my mind that I need to finish a project I've been working on for the past four or five years.
Technically, it should have been done in the first year I started, but with my lack of knowing what the hell I was doing (I still obviously don't know what I'm doing.  I'm just slight better at not knowing what I'm doing.).  I was getting help from a friend but unfortunately, health issues have left us both kind of have stalled things.
I feel bad that I'm continuing this project without her but at the same time, I'm not really the most patient person on the planet, and when I want to do something I want to do it NOW.
I just want to finish it.  I really do.
I don't know if it will ever see the light of day, but at least I'll know I actually finished a project.
Then another fear sets in.
What am I supposed to write about then?
I've been thinking about writing about witch trials in England.
It's actually a very interesting time history that I like very much.  It's just to think up of a story.
Anyway,  best get going.

Cheers