Money Sucks!!

Dear Me,

  Auuuggghhh!  Money anxiety!  We have found a great little apartment.  The only problem is, it costs money.  A lot of money.  Not so much we can't afford it.  It's just we'll be broke for a while.  Let me re-phrase, it means I'll be broke for a little while.  I still have to pay off my CC, save for kitty, save for a puppy, save for the wedding.
Then save for new furniture, plane tickets for SO's kids, a possible road trip to see Shakespeare in the park in Calgary.
Why is it everything you want to do always happens at once?  Why can it not just happen in bits and pieces?  It would make life so much easier!
You know what be great (and a very unoriginal thought)?  If we could win some money.  Not a shit ton of money, just enough to cover our costs and pay our (well mostly my) debts.
Y'know, I used to be good with money.  I guess I'm going to have to grow up and become good with money again.
It makes me so nervous about moving out.  But it had to happen some time.  After all, this is what I wanted for such a long time.  It's just something I have to adjust to.

Meh...

Anxiety will be with me until I have finished everything I have set out to do.

Huzzah!