Dear Me,

  Because I'm in a shitty mood I'm gonna write why my life sucks at the moment:

1.  I owe my parents two thousand dollars.  I owe them two thousand dollars because they were kind enough to cover me when my car decided to crap out.  If not for my significant other's unexpected unemployment, it would be paid off right now.  I would be making my last payment next week.

2. I owe three thousand dollars on my CC.  I would have started paying this off next month and have been done by December of this year.  Instead, I'm stuck fretting over bullshit.  Mind you, this is more my negligent spending so I asked for this one.  Still.  Pain in the ass.

3. My SO is unemployed.  This was not his fault.  This was because of the fucking bottom line and why I will forever hate the company that let him go.  Because they only employed him for five months it looks bad on his resume.  I have lost count at how many interviews he has gone to and then we have never heard from again.  I mean WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!!!  What the hell do they want from him??!!!!  And it seems with every passing month we are further and further away from him finding gainful employment.

I am so fucking tired of this fucking drama.  When will it end?  WHEN????  When can we stop worrying about making ends meet and just relax?  Just a little bit?  When will I be able to stop stressing so much about all of this?

I am getting so drained.