Dear Me,

  Back to square one.  It really scares me that we have to wait almost another year for him to go back to school.  It terrifies me that he won't get accepted in to the program he wants as it is incredibly competitive.  Even for a course that takes twenty-two weeks.

It bothers me that we're putting all our eggs in one basket.

It bothers me that we may have to move back into my parent's house.

It bothers me that for some fucked up reason, our life sucks.

If this were a movie, all this bullshit would bring us together and then he would succeed and life would be wonderful.

But this isn't a movie.  It's real life.  Real life sucks ass.